Saturday, May 14, 2011

Dreams ................


My dreams are too unrealistic but never discouraged me from dreaming. Day dreaming is one of my favorite hobby. It is one of the few things in my life over which I got complete control, maybe thats why I enjoy doing it. Few years from now, I see myself doing all those things for which I required permission or was forbidden from doing it. This was my problem ever since I grew up. I don't like to be challenged(who does?). I always believed in one thing or rather you can say my motto is " I know it better than you do " or " I am always right". Though it might not be a wise saying but it sure makes you confident and a little bit arrogant. In my defense, I would say people are different and so is their attitude.

Here I am today in the place where I was born and brought up but yet hate to spend one more moment here. Over the years I came to realize that this place brought the chicken and pig out of me. But gone are the days where I was weak and scared. Now I like to raise my leg and kick people's ass. People should get what they deserve and if you don't give it to them , they might get it the harder way. This is my little way of showing that I care.


I don't know why I chose to write on this topic today. Actually I decided on writing every single day as I was here ( kuwait) for my short vacation(which doesn't seem so short anymore) but have come to realize that I cant write anymore or rather one can say that I don't have any inspiration to write. I always make a mental note of things which are worth mentioning in my blog but when I actually sit down to write, I go completely blank ! I guess the reason behind this is that I am no more ANTAGONISTIC ...I have gone past that stage but it makes my blog look a lil different (I guess) so I dont wanna change it. I was thinking of creating another blog and writing more on general things as nothing great is happening in my life currently. However I will try my best to be more active in my blog.

Friday, August 6, 2010

Be kinder than necessary, because everyone you meet is fighting some sort of battle.

NO ONE CAN HELP YOU UNLESS YOU HELP YOURSELF FIRST ...


I understood this fact when I faced the reality of my life...my close friends helped me realize this..they came up with solutions like "tie a thread on your pinky so that you would be reminded when to bite your tongue".Just when I was working on it , the big thunder cracked above my head.But I wasn't shattered because I knew no one could help me unless I helped myself.My best friend said I couldn't keep anything to myself..well I did .Anyways , before revealing the changes it brought into my life I would like to mention how happy I am.I got a phone call from a person who supposedly was to be my friend for 6 years saying " you got no friends Dan,just look around you..you are so cheap". Well now my reply to that someone would be "why don't you look around yourself ...you got friends who never liked you in fact bitched about you..at least I never had friends like that and please reimburse the complete Bangalore trip which was on me :) ".I thought I would be lonely in Mangalore but no..God helped me a lot through the struggle ..though my first 2 years weren't very memorable and cheerful but I have managed to make my final year and also my life very colorful with many new friends..obviously this doesn't mean I would forget my old friends , I would never do that. speaking about my life now..I think its great !Now who ever thought that I was lonely..I think its high time you spoke for yourself !And yea one more thing to mention or point out to the person who said " look what your doing Dan..you are bitching about everyone" , well hope that someone realizes that I had bitched along with her..I guess when the time comes everyone wants their hands clean.Anyways I think am just over it..I got a big mouth and I like to talk..thats something I would never wanna control.YOU BE CAREFUL WITH WHAT YOU WANNA SAY TO ME ...


It would be every selfish of me if I dint mention about a special someone ...he has been with me whenever I wanted him.I would rather not say anything more cause I guess there has already been quite a lot of love stories in my earlier blog..but this one's special and I want to keep this one to myself...he is just too precious to be talked about.Hope this one works.....

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

IT MUST HAVE BEEN.............





Lay a whisper on my pillow
Leave the winter on the ground
I wake up lonely, is there a silence
In the bedroom and all around

Touch me now, I close my eyes
And dream away...

It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
It must have been love, but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out

Make believing we're together
That I'm sheltered by your heart
But in and outside I turn to water
Like a teardrop in your palm

And it's a hard winter's day
I dream away...

It must have been love, but it's over now
It was all that I wanted, now I'm living without
It must have been love, but it's over now
It's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows

It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
It must have been love, but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out

P.S ..this song has no resemblance to my life or to any person living or dead !!

Monday, July 5, 2010

THERE WAS ONLY ONE THING MISSING IN MY LIFE....!!!


There was a time once when I was alone..but not anymore.I found my only friend and after that I was never alone.Those who know me would not believe this change in me but for all I know is that I am happy.All I needed was a little guidance...I never saw this change coming in me.I guess it was high time for me to realise that life had much more than sorrow and worry.I have forgotten my past as it means nothing to me now..all that matters is the present which I am working on to make my future beautiful.



Now when I look ahead ..I feel so positive.I know I have the capability to make things better ..suddenly I have the faith in me that I can make things work( if I want to).I am so powerful because I have learnt to control my life in my very own style..like they say be 'the ruler of your life..don't let anyone else rule it for you'.


From my previous posts anyone can make out that most of the pain was caused by someone or the other.But not anymore cause I have decided not to give anyone the right to hurt me.For this to happen I need to be more careful with what I say and do.My mouth has been the main reason for putting me into trouble but am working on it now.So far the results are good:)

My plan for life-to be happy.Its time to wait for the right one.Don't wanna screw up anything anymore..time will get me closer to the best things in life...just like how time heals every wound in the same way time will bring the solution to my problems.Till then I am going to wait........

Thursday, July 1, 2010

AWESOME GOD !!!



When He rolls up His sleeves
He ain't just puttin' on the ritz
(our God is an awesome God)

There is thunder in His footsteps
And lightning in His fist
(our God is an awesome God)

Well, the Lord wasn't joking
When He kicked 'em out of Eden
It wasn't for no reason that He shed his blood
His return is very close and so you better be believing
that our God is an awesome God


Our God(our God) is an awesome God
He reigns(He reigns) from heaven above
With wisdom(with wisdom) pow'r and love
our God is an awesome God

And when the sky was starless in the void of the night
(our God is an awesome God)

He spoke into the darkness and created the light
(our God is an awesome God)

Judgment and wrath he poured out on Sodom
Mercy and grace He gave us at the cross
I hope that we have not too quickly forgotten that
our God is an awesome God

Our God(our God) is an awesome God
He reigns(He reigns) from heaven above
With wisdom(with wisdom) pow'r and love
our God is an awesome God


Our God is an awesome God
Our God is an awesome God
(Our God is an awesome God)
(Our God is an awesome God)

Monday, June 28, 2010

STORY..from my viewpoint !!!

X loved Y for a very long time..say for 6years..you cant say love exactly cause in this duration X fucked every girl possible..and Y was no saint as well rather went the way life took ..but not completely unaware of the presence of X's feelings towards Y.Y always saw a great friend in X..life once again brings them close ...at the point where they wanted one another(don't know about X but Y certainly did)..and then the most un expectable thing happened..Y fell in love with X..who would have ever imagined this but the most unimaginable things happen on this planet...but not a singe day passed in harmony..there were problems since day 1..firstly X dint trust in Y assuming that it was a tactic to forget the past and secondly X was caught up in situations which X wanted to clear before going any further into commitment...this was the daily scenario !!

Now the climax..one day out of the blue Y is warned by her family to stay away from X(and as you know family comes first for every person unless if their own family is messed)..so what would Y do?listen to the family or go along with that person who dint trust in her and had kept Y in doubt???however due to the fit of anger..Y at the moment created a distance between them but the next moment Y realised that what she did was completely wrong or at least the manner in which Y brought everything to an end was wrong.it took some time for Y to realise the mistake and that's when Y apologised...but till then X was very hurt..like OBVIOUSLY !!but what else could Y do..X who knew her for 7 years failed to understand the situation..so X decides to move on by not facing Y anymore.Y was very guilty so decided to shamelessly beg for forgiveness but X was determined and then that was the end!!






X could be happy because X could now get back to the messed up situations and sort it out or get more involved !!
Y could be happy because Y got to know how much love and attachment X had towards Y !!


MORAL OF THE STORY- Y saved herself from X !!!

100 truths about me..!!!


WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage - coconut WATER :)
3. Last text message - 4m keziah
2. Last phone call - = my dad
4. Last song you listened to = sugar town by nancy sinatra
5. Last time you cried - last night
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice - hmm yea
7. Been cheated on - hmm....
8. Kissed someone & regretted it -YES
9. Lost someone special - yeaahh :(
10. Been depressed - hmnn..yup
11. Been drunk and threw up - lol...lets nt talk abt it ;P

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Black
13. Purple
14. White

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend = yup
16. Fallen out of love = hmmnnnn........... YES AND NO
17. Laughed until you cried = yeaa manyyy tymz..
18. Met someone who changed you = YES.
19. Found out who your true friends were = i already knw..
20. Found out someone was talking about you = YES
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list =..YES
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life = almost all
23. How many kids do you want to have = 14
24. Do you have any pets = yeaahh a CAT(BABY)
25. Do you want to change your name = NO..i love it...
26. What did you do for your last birthday = hmn...cut d PIZZA..then a date and gt caught by the cops
27. What time did you wake up today = 07:00am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = chatting with my uncle cum best friend
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = CANT wait 4 tym 2 pass by....
30. Last time you saw your Mother = 2 weeks back
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? = everytin :(
32. What are you listening to right now? = leaving on a jet plane-JANIS JOPLIN
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = YES
34. What's getting on your nerves right now =MY LENS
35. Most visited web page = FB
36. What’s your full name = Dan Bridgette Martis
37. Nicknames = lol...jst Dan
38. Relationship Status = .........Single.........
39. Zodiac sign = Cancer
40. Male or female? = FEMALE...duh!
41. Elementary School= united indian schooll,Kuwait
42. High School= united indian school
43. College = st.aloysius college,mangalore
44. Hair color = Brown..
45. Long or short = nt so short ..nt so long..
46. Height = 151cms
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = naahhhh..
48: What do you like about yourself? = hmm.. almost everytin i guess....!!
49. Piercings = Ears and belly
50. Tattoos = noooo....
51. Righty or left = RIGHT...

FIRSTS:
52. First surgery = dnt av 1 yet...
53. First piercing = EARS
54. First best friend =hmnnn......hmnnn......hmn.....hmn...no besties.... :P:P
55. First sport you joined = basketball....:P
56. First vacation = India
58. First pair of trainers = hu remembers...

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = hershy's white chocolate with cookies
60. Drinking = nothin
61. I'm about to = answer d nxt quest .. :P
62. Listening to = christina aguilera-fighter
63. Waiting for = a miracle

YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids? = DUH..!!
65. Get Married? = hmn...yeaahhh
66. Career? = afcuz...though i dunno wht.. maybe fashion designer
67. Lips or eyes = BOTH
68. Hugs or kisses = actually....both agn....:)
69. Shorter or taller = Taller duh...
70. Older or Younger = d guy shud definitely b elder...!!
71. Romantic or spontaneous = ROMANTIC
72. Nice stomach or nice arms =nice arms
73. Sensitive or loud = sensitive...
74. Hook-up or relationship = RELATIONSHIP
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = trouble maker... ^_^

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = aahhh noooo....
77. Drank hard liquor= hmn....... :P:P
78. Lost glasses/contacts = contacts
79. Sex on first date = ohh hell NO..!!
80. Broken someone's heart = YES :( ..WHY DID I?
81. Had your own heart broken = hmm....yeaahh actually...
82. Been arrested = NOT EXACTLY :)
84. Cried when someone died = yup...duh..!!
85. Fallen for a friend? = nooo...!!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = yes i do..
87. Miracles = yes...badly w8in 4 1..!!
88. Love at first sight = nahh nt atall
89. Heaven = YEAH !!
90. Santa Claus = lol...nope..!!
91. Kiss on the first date = umm..yeaa depends...!!
92. Angels = ofcuz !!

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time = YES...JUST ONCE
95. Did you sing today? = yes...i do evryday... :P:P
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = YEA:(
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? = 2YEARS AND 1 MONTH
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = AUGUST 8TH..made an unnecessary scene on my break up..guy wasnt worth the pain i took !!
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = yeaahh :S :S
100. Posting this as 100 truths? - yeah..