LIKE I CARE ....

I have considered this numerous times, in fact made a game of it at some point.i know what i am doing..life wouldn't have been like this if i weren't out of the mess.world is really so beautiful..so many good people...so many friends...why dint i make the effort to know them before..so many plans...so many invitations..so many friends !! is there anything more i need???no ways..


Ahhhhh........frank?yea i am...yea do miss some things...but guess its high time to move on...actually i am moving on..and happy too..because i have been doing things lately which i thought i would never do..that too after a break up..break up with a guy whom i never thought would never leave me..why does life always prove me wrong?maybe that's how i learn...anyways chuck it !!!


time just flies by...and just so busy !!! i hardly get time to sleep...its always better than sticking your ass to one person ! yes it certainly is..but i would love to stick my ass to one person ..the one meant for me ! even though my past relation dint work out ..this wouldn't discourage me in the future...people do mistakes..he was one among them..he may also think likewise..i don't care !

I LIVE AND I LEARN !

i know what i have done...no ones knows what i went through...why the hell i fell into the ditch again??? dis time into deep shit...everything was so good...felt like nothing could go wrong...i left this place and joined the college in which he was,i dint mingle wid people so that i cud spend maximum time with him,left the pg so that i could be wid him all the time,straightened my hair cus he said he loves straight hair...i dun regret doing any of this...it benefited me !

today morning i got a forward saying 'people who hurt you are like sandpaper...they rub and scratch u painfully,eventually end up being smooth and polished,they end up being worn out and useless' !!!


i know now i am going through a tough phase in my life...a phase which i never dreamt of.he left me cus of the small things i did which irritated him...the small things for which he couldn't forgive me...every relationship got small fights but that's what makes relations stronger...maybe this relation was not worth it ! wonder how i became so committed and faithful 2 him ...he smiled wen i was crying..had hope in my heart that everything wud go rite...bt that smile of his washed that hope away...

OOO LA LA LA !!!

Time really passes...its here..the freedom,the life i wanted...something is missing..bt never mind,,I'm happy !!! college is good...love life under great shit bt this time I'm happy..y shouldn't i be?i came in search of happiness then y shud the one whom i love make things worse for me??NO WAYS...!!

In an apartment with divya...my school friend..my husband at home.its like a world of our own..ups and downs...so far only ups..lolz!!! well many new changes in me...starting off wid my permanent hair smoothening...he said he loves straight hair..did it keeping him in mind bt happy cus it makes me look gud as well as makes me feel good.Then came the belly piercing which just lasted for a week...the experience was crazy..gonna do it again soon.Then came our first kiss followed by some promises which dint seem 2 long until the recent fight we had..its still going on.i have given up..the hope !!


Still life moves on..

oh, random shit that hides in my head.

A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field. While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him. As the frozen bird lay there in the pi le of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was.The dung was actually thawing him out!

He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate.

Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Morals of the story: (1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy. (2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend. (3) And when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep
your mouth shut!

BOREDOM !

1. Where is your cell phone? lemme check- on charge

2. Your significant other? ...meh .get me a mirror

3. Your hair? brown,red wavy

4. Your mother? amazing

5. Your father? a gentleman

6. Your favourite? cant recollect

7. Your dream last night? im gettin married to the man of my dreams !

8. Your favourite drink? red red wine

9. Your dream/goal? to be a better me

10. What room are you in? miine

11. Your hobby? had a few grew out of em..

12. Your fear? being left alone

13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? a successful person and happy mom

14. Where were you last night? at home

15. Something you're aren't? a mug .?

16. Muffins? huh?

17. Wish list item? could get a new phone..

18. Where you grew up? kuwait

19. Last thing you did? laughed

20. What are you wearing? night dress

21. Your TV? i dun watch it

22. Your pets? my baby...my pet cat

23. Friends? Honest and themselves

24. Your life? aint that bad

25. Your mood? Melancholic (this note is taking longer than i thought it would)

26. Missing someone? yea...ALOT !

27. Car? love em..but dont own even 1 of em (a black one wid pink stars is my fav)

28. Something you're not wearing? a funny hat

29. Your favourite store? ..claires and accessorize

30. Your favourite colour? black and pink (sometimes white)

33. When is the last time you laughed? dun rememba

34. Last time you cried? aah.. waa today !

35. Who will resend this? i wouldnt have thought i would a few minutes ago

36. One place you go to over and over? loo

37. One person who emails me regularly? why email when u got other ways :P

38. Favourite place to eat? mc.donalds

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39. What am i doing: no idea!! greatt way to beat the time off exams perhaps!!

to all other time wasters.. proceed at ur own risk..of wasting time.

CHANGING....SOMETHINGS HAPPENING TO ME ~~~

Days go by so fast.... one year is over and i am gettin what i always wanted -'FREEDOM' !!! dont want to get carried away by the happiness alone..not over excited...im pessimist you see!!!

never knew that i would find the one again....some say u always play around wid the wrong ones untill ur parents find u the right one..dont know how its gonna be..and i dont even wanna think about it bcause im happy.. he is the reason for my laugh !!!

Watch your thoughts, they become words.
Watch your words, they become actions.
Watch your actions, they become habits.
Watch your habits, they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes...
your destiny.

'Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet
is fighting some kind of battle'.

AFTER TRYING....KEEP TRYING !!!

For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin-REAL LIFE but there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first , some unfinished business , time still to be served , a debt to be paid , at last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. This perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness , happiness is the way. So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.

Right now it feels like this was all i wanted...oh gosh am i in love again????

YOUR LIFE IS YOUR STORY !!!

I consider early childhood events as most essential to a man's scientific and philosophical development.I was born in Kuwait on July 19Th,1990 at 3.15 am, in the farwaniya hospital.Me my daddy's only girl.Having two brothers who were totally protective like the way brothers should be.Naturally , Mommy was always inclined towards the boys.That troubled me when i was small but now have understood the world and its ways.Daddy did nothing but thought about us and our future and our life and so on.He is my hero.They were supremely tolerant of my inordinate love for animals.Its in the family actually.

Went to an Indian school when i was 3.Like most of the kids,even i hated school then but fell in love with it when the time came to leave it forever(13 years makes a Big deal).Those 13 years introduced me to myself.At school, I met one important person who changed the shape of my life.I fell for the first lie he told me.At 12 i couldn't make out whats a lie so gradually fell for it.Boy .... i really loved him !!! Dreamt of him,Spoke about him,Fought for/with him ,Kissed him ,Cried for him ...after 6 years finally forgot him.It wasn't that easy..trust me !!! I had gained alot through him..a bad name (eg:bitch,slut,flirt) !!! All accepted...people don't lie..do they???Sometimes i wonder about all this..was i immatured or was i too matured ???well these questions are for me to answer to myself.In this duration i had made some good friends as well as some bad friends..both of which aren't in my life now..nor were they then..so i categorise them into bad friends.This wasn't the only experience I got from life..had many more but they were never important to me(yea, call me a flirt now).Most of the time life taught me in the hardest way possible but i wont totally agree to it.Its not been that bad as well.


In 11Th grade i was introduced to fun !!Parents were lenient as they understood that their pampered daughter is aware of her responsibilities and it was high time to let her loose.Made a couple of really good friends.Here in this context, i have to mention Faisal's name.He had been with me from the very beginning till the end.Most of the time people misunderstood our friendship but that dint make our relationship weak..because we believed in each other and not in what others blabbered.


On finishing high school, I was still obsessed with fun and love and friends.But all good things must come to an end.Forced into a college were i could never survive(REASON FOR COMPULSION-YOU ARE TOO SMALL TO TRAVEL SO BETTER JOIN A COLLEGE NEAR TO YOUR HOUSE).Yes,from here it all started.I have lost myself.The girl who wouldn't let anybody see her unless she was in her proper form is going to college with her hair done in the most ugly style,the girl who would never step out of her house without having the shine of gloss on her lips is walking on the road with chapped lips,lazy to wax,clothes which makes her look like 40 year old aunt(i wont agree to this completely thou)..this is the present me.It has almost been 10 months of this kind of life..in other words..10 months of this torture.


It would be inequitable of me to mention another twist in the tale which left me shattered(only for 2 days).Out of the 10 months mentioned above..9 months were lost in some one's fake love and care.I am too ashamed to mention the name as well..as he is int worth it.Wish i had realised this long back but happy that i dint...or else God knows how those 10 months would have passed.But it was a great time pass..thou i gave my heart,body,mind and soul in that relationship.Met him just once..i thought the basis of our relation was trust.Love is said to be blind..yea i was blinded.When i saw his face for the first time personally, someone donated me their eyes...i still remember that ugly face.But again...love is int all about the looks.This is what i told to myself and i still believe in the same.I don't change my opinions just for the sake of one guy.I'm like the preacher who practice what he preaches.Well the ending of this story was sudden..without any rational reason but happy that its over..or else fatema would have said ' i dint know ur choice was so ugly'!!!!But i know my friends...they accept any shit for me...but this time for a change the shit left me for my good !!!(lolz)


Now I'm alone..not that i don't have any friends or a boy friend...actually yes..i dont have any friends nor boy friends.I'm surviving and that's important.I believe in living for yourself..i know someday its all going to fall my way.NO HURRY DAN !!!Now lets turn back and see what have i learned.What???NAAAA...i never turn back.Its just one more month to go..and i will get my old Dan back..the bitcy one!!!I miss her.No one to guide me..no one to tell me what is to be done.Will miss my parents for sure but life doesn't stop there.I think i am falling into the web again..maybe not.Just because you were cheated in love once,twice,thrice ... doesn't mean u shouldn't love at all.I like someone,he said he liked me for long but now its unlike the interest he had in me when i was dating someone.Realities of life is really bitter.Someone said ,'Dan,you take your time..don't be dependant on any guy for u know what they do to you in the end'.Another girl said ,'just be yourself...don't let the boy games trouble you' while another said 'do what your heart says'.I am not dependant on anyone..i am my own self and i always do what my heart says.



This is not all about me..many more to come.This is what mostly everyone faces in their life..nothing new.Its just that when it happens ,you feel your the only one suffering and the main reason to that is you live only once !!!

DO RIGHT AND FEAR NO MAN !!!

Yea...now thats my motto.y do i have to fear if i havent done anything wrong????? I am scared of nuthing...thought i knew everything but atlast someone had to prove me wrong..and im happy that i was proved wrong or else would have rottened my life with a loser who meant no good to me.truly God loves me alot for showing me the right path before it was too late. when God closes one door he shows the way to many other doors.the silver lining of the cloud was nothing but an indication of the forth coming storm from which i am saved before it could be too late.days are just the same with just a pinch of difference.bored as hell,jobless as an ass,fooled in love but yet i havent accepted defeat.there is something waiting for me .i know its very close 2 me.let the time come..not gonna rush.patience is the key to success.always beleived in that..wish i had also followed it.anyways its never too late.no harm done ...actually nothing can harm me unless i let something to do so..my life is under my control and not dependant on anyone.

LAUGH SO HARD THAT EVEN SORROW SMILES AT YOU , LIVE LIFE SO WELL THAT EVEN DEATH LOVES TO SEE U LIVE , FIGHT SO HARD THAT EVEN FATE ACCEPTS IS DEFEAT!

LIFE MEANS " MISSING ONE AND FACING UNEXPECTED ONE"
WHEN YOU ARE NEAR NO ONE REMEMBERS YOU BUT WHEN YOU ARE FAR NO ONE FORGETS YOU- THATS LIFE !!!
THE PEOPLE WHO ARE LOVED DESERVE TO KNOW THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE THEM...SO DONT MISS A CHANCE TO EXPRESS YOUR LOVE ,BECAUSE HEARTS ARE BROKEN WITH THE WORDS UNSPOKEN (MY EXPERIENCE)
WHEN YOU SHARE THE GOODNESS IN YOUR HEART,U ALWAYS END UP WINNING HEARTS BECAUSE LIFE IS AN ECHO. IT GIVES BACK WHAT YOU AVE GIVEN TO OTHERS.
ALL MY LIFE I HAVE BELEIVED IN THIS - "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON" ..BUT THE HARDEST PART IS FINDING OUT THE REASON !!!
LIFE IS NOT WORTH LIVING UNTIL U FIND SOMEONE TO DIE FOR....AND LIFE IS NOT WORTH DYING UNTIL U FIND SOMEONE TO LIVE FOR..STRANGE...BUT TRUE !!!


THE INEVITABLE TRUTH OF LIFE-'EVERYONE IN YOUR LIFE IS GONNA HURT U SOONER OR LATER...'U JUST HAVE TO REALISE WHO IS WORTH? THE PAIN OR THE PERSON.

MEET ME !!!!!!!!!

1. I am DAN
2. I don't belive boys
3. I love walking in the rain
4. I love my friends
5. I am a Cancerian
6. I hate waking up early in the morning
7. I am single (not actually )
8. I love food
9. I love making friends
10. I love irritating people
11. I love talking and can be on the phone for hours
12. I like to be a politician
13. I love cold coffee
14. I love my mom, dad and brothers.
15. I love traveling
16. I dont follow rules
17. I am an extrovert.
18. I am a good girl
19. I am a bad girl
20. I am proud of being a christian
21. I love my cat
22. I love wine
23. I hate humidity
24. I love cold weather
25. I love music. All kinds. All languages.






26. I love style
27. I love pulling people’s legs
28. I love snow
29. I love making use of make-up
30. I love fergie
31. I hate repeating myself
32. I love hot showers
33. I love cuddling up
34. I am a cleanliness freak
35. I love taking the lead
36. I love living alone
37. I love adam sandler
38. I love animals
39. I love my boy freind
40. I am a practically romantic
41. I hate dishonesty
42. I love going for long drives with someone special. Especially in the rain.
43. I love eating out
44. I am a good cook. When I do cook
45. I love wearing Jeans
46. I love my work
48. I am abnormal
49. I am a free spirit
50. I love perfumed candles





51. I love wearing jackets and T-shirts
52. I hate people who do not listen to me
53. I am very impatient
54. I like my home
55. I am a quick decision maker...maybe
56. I do not regret anything I have done till now
57. I love lip gloss
58. I love fireplaces
59. I hate narrow minded people
60. I love gadgets
61. I hate being tied to one place
62. I believe that life is too short to hold grudges
63. I believe love can happen. Again. And Again. And Again.
64. I enjoy meeting new people
65. I judge people by their actions
66. I hate back-stabbers
67. I love my family
68. I love playing games
69. I have good/crazy/funny personality
70. I love taking photographs. Not being in them though.
71. I never take anything seriously
72. I love making jokes about myself
73. I love telling stories
74. I am self destructive
75. I hate wasting time







76. I believe in enjoying every minute of my life
77. I hate people watching me
78. I am an pessimist
79. I have great love and dedication towards God
80. I love to bunk my class
81. I love doing favors
82. I love watching movies
83. I love sea food
84. I love Faisal
85. I love showing off
86. I am proud to be an Indian
87. I love shopping
88. I am proud to be a girl
89. I believe in destiny
90. I love roller coasters
91. I love adventure sports
92. I love facebooking
93. I can never sit at one place for a long time
94. I love fire alarms
95. I hate anti nationalism
96. I love my eyes and lips
97. I love champagne
98. I love perfumes
99. I love to be loved
100. I am tired of typing this list

A NEW YEAR....A NEW BEGINNING !!

Here , at last found time 2 make a post, well this is my first one in this year so let me not make it the usual one...

well lots of changes in this new year and I'm quite happy with it..the time has come when all my gloomy days gonna turn into happy ones. first change is in my attitude . this change was all i needed in life...could not understand that !!!! My attitude towards life was the root cause for my depression... i realised i ain't different from others..I'm common !!! 'A LAYMAN' -That's what i am...i ain't the only person who got probs in life...there are more worse cases.well actually i had realised this long back and even mentioned this point in my earlier post but this year i decided to keep this point in my head every time i worry...its high time 2 talk/express less and act more . wish i had done this earlier !!!


A NEW YEAR...A NEW BEGINNING...this is what I'm looking forward to.tired of all that old boring complaining/negative attitude of mine....now i wanna think positive , then all things will fall my way (thanks to a very special person for developing this thought in me).

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION - NEVER TO MAKE A RESOLUTION !!!