TAKE LIFE AS IT COMES...

i have realised that i have gained a lot from life...the one thing in me which i am proud about is my EXPERIENCE in life..i have been thru good times and bad times , seen love and hate ,freedom and depression,and the list goes on...thou my age wont justify this statement but i know what i have learned over the past few years and i am proud that with this quality i would be able 2 tell my kids lots of bed time stories and put them to bed early !!!



just when God closes one door he shows the way 2 many more open doors..we just don't have the potential to see it , because we are so busy cursing and complaining about what we lost...("I" suits more than "WE" )

i believe it is necessary 2 have a distinction between God and humans and that distinction is based on our inevitable feature 2 sin...this is what makes us humans..i realised this fact long time back .that's how i ended up being too human!!!leaving aside the humanity part , i always knew that there was a way for me 2get back my happiness..things are still the same but yet i take it as how it comes..if something/someone is made for me then it will always be mine no matter what the circumstances.

TRULY....'GREAT IS GOD'S POWER AND GREATER IS HE HIMSELF' !!!

ATTITUDE

The longer i live ,the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.Attitude to me is more important than facts.It is more important than the past,than education,than money,than circumstances,than failures,than success,than what other people think or do or say.It is more important than appearance,giftedness or skill.It will break or make a company.The remarkable thing is ,we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day.We cannot change our past , we cannot change the fact that people Will act in a certain way.We cannot change the inevitable.The only thing we can do it is plan on the same thing we have, and that is our attitude...I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how i react to it.And so it is with you...we are in charge of our ATTITUDES !!!

I AM SENTIMENTAL...1%SENTI AND 99% MENTAL !!!

My brain has 2 parts:- Right and left,the right one has nothing left in it and the left one has nothing right in it........


I talk to myself because I like dealing with a better class of people

I am a reasonably competent professional with infrequent flashes of astonishing brilliance balanced by equally infrequent flashes of profound stupidity...

Well now you would have began to think i am hopeless!!..???... well ..thats no probz..ur at liberty !!!

ATTITUDE HUH???thats wht u wondering isint???y shouldnt I???

WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH..THE TOUGH GETS GOING !!

well well well ,,as the title suggests ..i can see the brighter side of life ..now wen i take a luk at my past and all the things i complained about..i feel it was nothing (thou it wasnt nothing...it was the hardest phase of my life) !!!
talking about the fresh new matters..like for instance 2day...its actually a very different day for me...usually im bored but 2day i am EXTREMELY BORED..!!!isint that sumthin new ???lol this is wht happens wen ppl start seein the brighter side of life..they see a difference in their routine and be happy with it..(now now Daniel.if ur reading this im sure u will be happy for me)...

now talkin about yestrday ...bahhh its past..who wanna talk abt it but yet making the post a bit longer and interesting i am gonna bore all the interested ppl who read my blog without any fail...well yesterday was really very tiring day for me..went 2 church after 3 weeks..man i really dont like that place...luks like ppl cum there not out of faith but just 2 show others how important they r in the parish or how pius they are etc etc...well atleast the ppl in my parish do that !!anyways its just gonna be for mere 4 more months of being forced like this 2 do things that i dont find pleasure in...after that i will be the master of my own fate and decisions...this litle phrase 'after 4 months ' is the only thing that keeps me motivated..i say it everytime i breathe these days..(God knws wen that day gonna cum wen i will say 'afta 1 day')...sighhhh luk at the way how humans keep increasing their expectations...nevr satisfied !!!...now my aim is 2 live 2 the fullest even when i know i cannot... laters i dun wanna regret any thing saying 'sigh...i had an opportunity but i wasted it by cursing my life over and over again'...no..thats nt gonna happen wid me..no ways...no matter wer i am..i am gonna live (even if its nt my way of living..but i can always pretend)...this is wht me doing nw..aint actually happy but the fact that i am gonna have all that i long for and wished for makes me happy !!!

YIPEEE....4 MORE MONTHS !!!

lol...just 4 more months..happiness nt that far frm me..hurayyy...gotta celebrate each day now..countdown had already begun..now waitin for the showdown

Meet My Friends...

FATEMA(aka fatty)- who says that muslim families are narrow minded or they dont let their womens have fun...well my fatema is an exception..man she rocks..u wanna enjoy then u gotta be wid her...she is damn spontaneous and active..i came 2 knw her from my 8th grade..used 2 know her b4 also but never realy bcame gud frnds...m glad that v came 2 know eachother gradually..man she is so understanding..she understands me so well...a friend i can die for....the best word which describes her is PERFECT..gud in studies,decent,maintains gud relations wid everyone,mama's gal,sister cum tutor etc etc and the list goes on... the mystery abt this gal is that she watches all the daily soaps,watches the latest movies b4 the critics do,never misses out fun...but God knows wen she finds time 2 study..well this still remains a mystery so lets not try 2 unlock it and break our heads!!!




SANIA(d 100 fils gal)-man u wanna know the worth of 100 fils..ask sania..she may even grab that coin from ur hand..lol..but really she was fun 2 be MADE OFF!!!making fun of her used 2 be our biggest time pass and she used 2 be patient and listen 2 us...and then laugh at our logic...u got no idea tht u wer da one who used 2 make us laugh even in between the road just by showing ur face..we spoiled our name bcoz of u..ppl thought we were mad!!but anyways those were da days..life would have been so gloomy without u..seriosuly mean it ..well here i gotta mention my partner in crime..thts the one and only DIVYA..she was my support...my backbone bhind all the jokes i cracked about sania..i still remember the times we had in the souk..the way u used 2 bargain..boy i'll never forget it..wen it cums 2 saving money..sania can go on a verbal fight as well as physical fight..and yea one more thing 2 mention..her hair..well i always used 2 admire it but never told u..dint want u 2 fly high...she has got the curliest hair possible..like noodles,..man i do miss this female a lot since no one her 2 make fun off!!!


kiwi(also known known for her famous laugh)-d perfect combination of beauty wid brains..the youngest among as well as the naughtiest..u never know wen she comes up wid her dumb/smart ideas(most of the time dumb)....well our frndship started wid a small cold war but as the days passed ...we came know eachother more and more and thats how we realised how close we have bcome..she's baby...had lots of fun wid her....she can make u go nuts wid her sense of humour..her laugh is such that it can gulp an entire pig into her mouth..very emotional,a very dedicated daughter..will never lie and go out(exceptions-wen we went2pizzahut,mcdonalds,awladonna,souk,cozmoz etc etc)...
lol lets not go deep into it..well wht more 2 say about this female..really a gr8 chic..hot..will never forget the times we had



DIVYA(my partner in crime)-the D-factor u can say...without her my PJ's are incomplete..this female did a late entry into my life but wenever did she enter..she introduced me 2 life...2 fun...will never forget my times wid u...well one biggest trait in her is that she is very responsible..ok now if ur reading this divya..i knw u gona roll on the floor and laugh at it..still remember wen u wer walkin on the road and u felt like sumthin fell frm ur pocket but u dint bother 2 see it..laters we found out that it was ur civil id..lol...there r many more unforgettable moments that i have spent wid her..cannot type them all out here..even though she is never on time ..but she has been there wen eva i need her..she enjoys in living in the moment..very sporty,a hogger..well thats wht we both gud for her...but her appetite is sumthin which i couldnt race..but yet she manages 2 stay slim...isint that wooooww....the apple of her parents eyes...God fearing ..welll babes just want u 2 knw that if it wasnt for u ...i would have never been introduced 2 fun..would have been homesick all the time...love u gal..wereva u are !!

Why is my fate against me????

i dont know why i always have 2 struggle with my fate...wen i feel just rite and happy , there is always something or the other 2 make me feel down...health has always been against me in india and as well as my fucking fate..life has been a bitch 2 me..or its the other way round..dunoe whts rite...

Hell !!!

What's wrong with our society, is it fear or apathy,
Don't let other people run your life
So those with power don't use it, they simply abuse it,
And believe me that cuts me like a knife

We gotta make sure that this don't happen,
'Cause to me and you it just ain't right,
Gonna make damn sure it don't happen,
This is what I'm gonna do

Rock you to hell, packin' up and shippin' out,
Rock you to hell, hear them scream and shout,
Rock you to hell, but I'm never giving out,
Rock you to hell, Rock you to hell

Did you always do what momma said, brush your teeth and go to bed,
'Cause that way never worked for me,
Now they wanna censor music, and if we don't fight we'll lose it,
It's only entertainment, can't they see?

We gotta make sure that this don't happen,
'Cause to me and you it just ain't right,
Gonna make damn sure it don't happen,
This is what I'm gonna do

Rock you to hell, packin' up and shippin' out,
Rock you to hell, hear them scream and shout,
Rock you to hell, but I'm never giving out,
Rock you to hell, Rock you to hell
Rock you to hell

Is this the beginning of a future
No books, no sound, no rock 'n' roll,
With only a few to fight, the manly
This is why rock 'n' roll will never die

We gotta make sure that this don't happen,
'Cause to me and you it just ain't right,
Gonna make damn sure it don't happen,
This is what I'm gonna do

Rock you to hell, packin' up and shippin' out,
Rock you to hell, hear them scream and shout,
Rock you to hell, but I'm never giving out,
Rock you to hell, Rock you to hell

Cure What You Cannot Endeavour !!!

I am a thinker, an analyzer, an avid observer and a warm appreciator.. I am sane and at the same time equally eccentric and weird ... i am both humble and arrogant .. i am stubborn and sensitive ... its not that i developed these qualities recently..i had them always but could never use them for proving my self..

just that these days i got no job rather than blaming my fate ...what else can u do wen u knw that ur fate doesnt favour u???guess m a sadistic person...i find pleasure in being sad these days...i derive pleasure from it...i am happy with it...it doesnt give me any attension cos people over think thats my attitude ...they dont know how i was..they dunoe how i have changed ...i feel somethings changed in me..cant figure out that SOMETHING...................................................

I always knew that looking back on my tears would someday make me laugh, but I never knew that looking back on my laughter would someday make me cry

no reason actually but just happy... got a smile on my face...laughed the whole day without any reason..ppl laughed looking at me then..but anyways it was an entirely different day for me...i dint complain abt anythin..just let things go...accepted everything that came my way..i think i am slowly getting out of my depression...thanks 2 some close frnds of mine...they made me realise that this is not the end...i feel i got lot of ppl around me who guide me and care for me...man i love this feeling..never wanna loose some people in my life..

MY DREAM IS TO FLY SO HIGH

spent my entire day doing nothing...i am so gud in it...i always do nothing these days..just woke up wid a smile on my face..trying 2 keep up that smile till i go 2 bed..took life the way how it is..dint complain..dint growl..kept the burden aside and took a day off from my worries...amidst all this tried 2 commit myself 2 my studies which i was ignoring all these days..well i gave my best shot ...dunoe whether i am able 2 retain it but at least i tried..i dun give up..will keep on trying..that's my motto in life..even wen i know i cant change things but yet i dream of changing them...love 2 live in a word of fantasies where things go my way...if not things then at least my life goes my way...that's the way how i want it 2 be..my life to be lived by me...many million dreams that i gotta fulfill..those dreams that i always lived in..those dreams that i thought will always remain a dream..its time 2 make reality more better than my dreams.2day i was just focusing on my aims in life ..then i realised that i haven't set any aim ....'realised that i wanted an omlette without breaking an egg'.

maybe one reason for me 2 feel so down is that i am not willing 2 mingle with anyone..maybe this is my problem..but again i have tried ..tried till i understood that my efforts were worthless...just a waste of time...time is something that never waits for anyone...then i should i wait for that time 2 come when i get along with people over here...

people over here are nothing but hypocrites..fuck off all u big time wannabes'...they never practice what they preach..thats what i hate...retired people over here have no other work besides watching daily soaps and interfearing in other's life...make news and then spread news..and wen they get2 hear it from some one else..just act shocked..woowwww

LIGHT WITHIN MY DARKNESS-Better by far you should forget and smile than that you should remember and be sad.

everything just went right..just the way it should go..normal.had a good time in college..actually it was like anyother day but only diference that i made the best of it..(m takin ur advice daniel-it sure make me feel gud)...then an hour free so rushed home....
actually its just that my life is getting so monotonous...i am getting used 2 it..tired of complaining cos i knw no one can make a change for me..sick of it cos i know that no one get me out of it...i think i am going insane day by day..loosing a part of me each day..but i think its high time that i should let this feeling go..

yes i am bold enough 2 face this world...no matter how cruel it is..i knw i can do it..i had always done it.i dont know wht stops me now?


'When I look back on all these worries, I remember the story of the old man who said on his deathbed that he had had a lot of trouble in his life, most of which had never happened. '-winston churchill

no i dun wanna die like that ...i knw i will get thru all this....its not the worst that i have...m just lonely..i need a companion..no maybe i have...but not close 2 me !!!


Life is pleasant.
Death is peaceful.
It's the transition that's troublesome
-Jimi Hendrix

im never tired of constantly grumbling about the million things i hate

You can thank blogger for this long pointless, bitter and possibly meaningless post. This will be very long probably, so if you don't wanna listen to me, well bitch.

I have over the past 2 years been thinking what the use of living is, why do we work so much and all that. I have had a quite bad life myself since I something bad happend to my mother [But that is another story].

What I have been doing lately is writing a list of goals in my head in which to improve my life. The basics of life, well any good life for any of us would be to get a job, house or flat of your own and a nice caring Boyfriend., then to build up around them with everything which will make you happy and not feel that strange way you do when you hate life.

My problem is that i think that i got more problems then other people. Well, i am wrong. Just in Africa there are probably a billion of people who have more problems in life than i do.While it is a very good idea but my problem is not the writing out the goals, my problems is actually following through on them. I am one of those people who will set their alarm to get up at 8 am then hit snooze about 20 times and eventually find a way to rationalize not needing to get up. I know for a fact that I have to get out of my parents house because while they are very cool about giving me my space it still annoys the hell out of me to know they just upstairs.

It's pathetic, when I first started college I knew what I wanted to do, even if it was a unthought out choice, and I had a plan layed out to be finished in 3 years. Now that I have actually really thought about what I wanted to do with my life I can't decide on something. Now the question is would it had been better to do something I don't like, or to hold out for the chance that I might find something I do like, which is no guarantee?

TALENTS DAY !!!

2day was unlike the usual days...i participated in my college talents day and it ws some fun...i was in a group song..and then in a skit...i had some lines in kannada...well the audience had a gud time luaghing at my accent....after my class performance i had 2 say the vote of thanks (since i am the class representative )..then i just hurried home.
lukin for sumthin different this weekend..will be goin 2 my mom's place..will return back 2mrw..dont know y but i feel like i have achieved something 2day

ONCE UPON A TIME I USED 2 BE HAPPY

i lost the meaning of happiness just wen i was introduced to it...maybe this was wht i deserved..another day of my life just passes widout any meaning..without any fun..without me even knowing wht i have done...

i wαит αиσтнєя lifє............. тσ bєgiи αgαiи........

dont know what went wrong...how?why?but it just went wrong...just wen i began 2 start living my life...enjoyed,moved ahead....everything then came 2 an abrupt end...just dont know y?WHY me???but life has 2 move on....so here i am struggling for something tht i deserve...sumthing that i desire

those wer the days...bak in kuwait.missing my pals a lot..kiwi,fatema,sania,faisal..wereva u guys are...just remember i love u all a lot..dose were da days we had..baahh anyways lets talk abt the days i have now..just came down 2 india for my college..blindly fell into the ditch...hoping for something new next year...thats wht motivates me 2 breathe these days orelse i was dead long back

i just wish 2 start my life again...wanna make up for my past mistakes..relive my past times..like in the school,malls,beaches etc..wanna do all that which i always thought of doing but never did ...dont know y but i used 2 feel that this is the end..thats it...its over!!!! but no...i saw the silver lining of the black clouds...came 2 know someone special who just changed my life..