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Frustration !!!

Freedom is something I seek eternally. I know some things do not come easy to us, we either got to snatch it or make it happen through constant struggle. Struggle is a bitter word but also a common one in the corporate world. As that is exactly what am doing for a career, for a career that I got no clue about. May be that is why I am under such pressure now. I took some time to figure it out and after constant brainstorming with myself , I realized that I want to be a part of something that relates to me.

After heavy sleep deprivation, loss in appetite, nervous breakdown and certain other ailments , I had to soothe to myself. What hurts the most is that in life we always choose this one person who we can relate to and make that person as our favorite. But when that favorite person of ours doesn't have anything much to offer rather than their own sad stories , you kind of lack a shoulder to lean on. This is very disappointing. Extremely disappointing. I am not an expert in lending my shoulders to others but at least I understand when a person needs me though I may turn out to be a bad listener.

Anyways the reason for writing after such a long time could be frustration and the need to express it. This is when I turn to my blog and burst out my entire thoughts, cause I know that at this place am safe with no one prying on what I got to say.

There are certain things I tell myself , like ; time heals everything; God has a plan for everyone; live in the moment; everything happens for a reason and the reason is always for your good and blah blah. These sayings are true but very crappy cause waiting for something you really desire is a pain. Wish patience was an easy word !!!

Dreams ................

My dreams are too unrealistic but never discouraged me from dreaming. Day dreaming is one of my favorite hobby. It is one of the few things in my life over which I got complete control, maybe thats why I enjoy doing it. Few years from now, I see myself doing all those things for which I required permission or was forbidden from doing it. This was my problem ever since I grew up. I don't like to be challenged(who does?). I always believed in one thing or rather you can say my motto is " I know it better than you do " or " I am always right". Though it might not be a wise saying but it sure makes you confident and a little bit arrogant. In my defense, I would say people are different and so is their attitude.

Here I am today in the place where I was born and brought up but yet hate to spend one more moment here. Over the years I came to realize that this place brought the chicken and pig out of me. But gone are the days where I was weak and scared. Now I like to raise my leg and kick people's ass. People should get what they deserve and if you don't give it to them , they might get it the harder way. This is my little way of showing that I care.

I don't know why I chose to write on this topic today. Actually I decided on writing every single day as I was here ( kuwait) for my short vacation(which doesn't seem so short anymore) but have come to realize that I cant write anymore or rather one can say that I don't have any inspiration to write. I always make a mental note of things which are worth mentioning in my blog but when I actually sit down to write, I go completely blank ! I guess the reason behind this is that I am no more ANTAGONISTIC ...I have gone past that stage but it makes my blog look a lil different (I guess) so I dont wanna change it. I was thinking of creating another blog and writing more on general things as nothing great is happening in my life currently. However I will try my best to be more active in my blog.