OOO LA LA LA !!!

Time really passes...its here..the freedom,the life i wanted...something is missing..bt never mind,,I'm happy !!! college is good...love life under great shit bt this time I'm happy..y shouldn't i be?i came in search of happiness then y shud the one whom i love make things worse for me??NO WAYS...!!

In an apartment with divya...my school friend..my husband at home.its like a world of our own..ups and downs...so far only ups..lolz!!! well many new changes in me...starting off wid my permanent hair smoothening...he said he loves straight hair..did it keeping him in mind bt happy cus it makes me look gud as well as makes me feel good.Then came the belly piercing which just lasted for a week...the experience was crazy..gonna do it again soon.Then came our first kiss followed by some promises which dint seem 2 long until the recent fight we had..its still going on.i have given up..the hope !!


Still life moves on..

oh, random shit that hides in my head.

A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field. While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him. As the frozen bird lay there in the pi le of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was.The dung was actually thawing him out!

He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate.

Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Morals of the story: (1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy. (2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend. (3) And when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep
your mouth shut!

BOREDOM !

1. Where is your cell phone? lemme check- on charge

2. Your significant other? ...meh .get me a mirror

3. Your hair? brown,red wavy

4. Your mother? amazing

5. Your father? a gentleman

6. Your favourite? cant recollect

7. Your dream last night? im gettin married to the man of my dreams !

8. Your favourite drink? red red wine

9. Your dream/goal? to be a better me

10. What room are you in? miine

11. Your hobby? had a few grew out of em..

12. Your fear? being left alone

13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? a successful person and happy mom

14. Where were you last night? at home

15. Something you're aren't? a mug .?

16. Muffins? huh?

17. Wish list item? could get a new phone..

18. Where you grew up? kuwait

19. Last thing you did? laughed

20. What are you wearing? night dress

21. Your TV? i dun watch it

22. Your pets? my baby...my pet cat

23. Friends? Honest and themselves

24. Your life? aint that bad

25. Your mood? Melancholic (this note is taking longer than i thought it would)

26. Missing someone? yea...ALOT !

27. Car? love em..but dont own even 1 of em (a black one wid pink stars is my fav)

28. Something you're not wearing? a funny hat

29. Your favourite store? ..claires and accessorize

30. Your favourite colour? black and pink (sometimes white)

33. When is the last time you laughed? dun rememba

34. Last time you cried? aah.. waa today !

35. Who will resend this? i wouldnt have thought i would a few minutes ago

36. One place you go to over and over? loo

37. One person who emails me regularly? why email when u got other ways :P

38. Favourite place to eat? mc.donalds

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39. What am i doing: no idea!! greatt way to beat the time off exams perhaps!!

to all other time wasters.. proceed at ur own risk..of wasting time.

CHANGING....SOMETHINGS HAPPENING TO ME ~~~

Days go by so fast.... one year is over and i am gettin what i always wanted -'FREEDOM' !!! dont want to get carried away by the happiness alone..not over excited...im pessimist you see!!!

never knew that i would find the one again....some say u always play around wid the wrong ones untill ur parents find u the right one..dont know how its gonna be..and i dont even wanna think about it bcause im happy.. he is the reason for my laugh !!!

Watch your thoughts, they become words.
Watch your words, they become actions.
Watch your actions, they become habits.
Watch your habits, they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes...
your destiny.

'Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet
is fighting some kind of battle'.

AFTER TRYING....KEEP TRYING !!!

For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin-REAL LIFE but there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first , some unfinished business , time still to be served , a debt to be paid , at last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. This perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness , happiness is the way. So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.

Right now it feels like this was all i wanted...oh gosh am i in love again????

YOUR LIFE IS YOUR STORY !!!

I consider early childhood events as most essential to a man's scientific and philosophical development.I was born in Kuwait on July 19Th,1990 at 3.15 am, in the farwaniya hospital.Me my daddy's only girl.Having two brothers who were totally protective like the way brothers should be.Naturally , Mommy was always inclined towards the boys.That troubled me when i was small but now have understood the world and its ways.Daddy did nothing but thought about us and our future and our life and so on.He is my hero.They were supremely tolerant of my inordinate love for animals.Its in the family actually.

Went to an Indian school when i was 3.Like most of the kids,even i hated school then but fell in love with it when the time came to leave it forever(13 years makes a Big deal).Those 13 years introduced me to myself.At school, I met one important person who changed the shape of my life.I fell for the first lie he told me.At 12 i couldn't make out whats a lie so gradually fell for it.Boy .... i really loved him !!! Dreamt of him,Spoke about him,Fought for/with him ,Kissed him ,Cried for him ...after 6 years finally forgot him.It wasn't that easy..trust me !!! I had gained alot through him..a bad name (eg:bitch,slut,flirt) !!! All accepted...people don't lie..do they???Sometimes i wonder about all this..was i immatured or was i too matured ???well these questions are for me to answer to myself.In this duration i had made some good friends as well as some bad friends..both of which aren't in my life now..nor were they then..so i categorise them into bad friends.This wasn't the only experience I got from life..had many more but they were never important to me(yea, call me a flirt now).Most of the time life taught me in the hardest way possible but i wont totally agree to it.Its not been that bad as well.


In 11Th grade i was introduced to fun !!Parents were lenient as they understood that their pampered daughter is aware of her responsibilities and it was high time to let her loose.Made a couple of really good friends.Here in this context, i have to mention Faisal's name.He had been with me from the very beginning till the end.Most of the time people misunderstood our friendship but that dint make our relationship weak..because we believed in each other and not in what others blabbered.


On finishing high school, I was still obsessed with fun and love and friends.But all good things must come to an end.Forced into a college were i could never survive(REASON FOR COMPULSION-YOU ARE TOO SMALL TO TRAVEL SO BETTER JOIN A COLLEGE NEAR TO YOUR HOUSE).Yes,from here it all started.I have lost myself.The girl who wouldn't let anybody see her unless she was in her proper form is going to college with her hair done in the most ugly style,the girl who would never step out of her house without having the shine of gloss on her lips is walking on the road with chapped lips,lazy to wax,clothes which makes her look like 40 year old aunt(i wont agree to this completely thou)..this is the present me.It has almost been 10 months of this kind of life..in other words..10 months of this torture.


It would be inequitable of me to mention another twist in the tale which left me shattered(only for 2 days).Out of the 10 months mentioned above..9 months were lost in some one's fake love and care.I am too ashamed to mention the name as well..as he is int worth it.Wish i had realised this long back but happy that i dint...or else God knows how those 10 months would have passed.But it was a great time pass..thou i gave my heart,body,mind and soul in that relationship.Met him just once..i thought the basis of our relation was trust.Love is said to be blind..yea i was blinded.When i saw his face for the first time personally, someone donated me their eyes...i still remember that ugly face.But again...love is int all about the looks.This is what i told to myself and i still believe in the same.I don't change my opinions just for the sake of one guy.I'm like the preacher who practice what he preaches.Well the ending of this story was sudden..without any rational reason but happy that its over..or else fatema would have said ' i dint know ur choice was so ugly'!!!!But i know my friends...they accept any shit for me...but this time for a change the shit left me for my good !!!(lolz)


Now I'm alone..not that i don't have any friends or a boy friend...actually yes..i dont have any friends nor boy friends.I'm surviving and that's important.I believe in living for yourself..i know someday its all going to fall my way.NO HURRY DAN !!!Now lets turn back and see what have i learned.What???NAAAA...i never turn back.Its just one more month to go..and i will get my old Dan back..the bitcy one!!!I miss her.No one to guide me..no one to tell me what is to be done.Will miss my parents for sure but life doesn't stop there.I think i am falling into the web again..maybe not.Just because you were cheated in love once,twice,thrice ... doesn't mean u shouldn't love at all.I like someone,he said he liked me for long but now its unlike the interest he had in me when i was dating someone.Realities of life is really bitter.Someone said ,'Dan,you take your time..don't be dependant on any guy for u know what they do to you in the end'.Another girl said ,'just be yourself...don't let the boy games trouble you' while another said 'do what your heart says'.I am not dependant on anyone..i am my own self and i always do what my heart says.



This is not all about me..many more to come.This is what mostly everyone faces in their life..nothing new.Its just that when it happens ,you feel your the only one suffering and the main reason to that is you live only once !!!

DO RIGHT AND FEAR NO MAN !!!

Yea...now thats my motto.y do i have to fear if i havent done anything wrong????? I am scared of nuthing...thought i knew everything but atlast someone had to prove me wrong..and im happy that i was proved wrong or else would have rottened my life with a loser who meant no good to me.truly God loves me alot for showing me the right path before it was too late. when God closes one door he shows the way to many other doors.the silver lining of the cloud was nothing but an indication of the forth coming storm from which i am saved before it could be too late.days are just the same with just a pinch of difference.bored as hell,jobless as an ass,fooled in love but yet i havent accepted defeat.there is something waiting for me .i know its very close 2 me.let the time come..not gonna rush.patience is the key to success.always beleived in that..wish i had also followed it.anyways its never too late.no harm done ...actually nothing can harm me unless i let something to do so..my life is under my control and not dependant on anyone.