AFTER TRYING....KEEP TRYING !!!

For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin-REAL LIFE but there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first , some unfinished business , time still to be served , a debt to be paid , at last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. This perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness , happiness is the way. So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.

Right now it feels like this was all i wanted...oh gosh am i in love again????

YOUR LIFE IS YOUR STORY !!!

I consider early childhood events as most essential to a man's scientific and philosophical development.I was born in Kuwait on July 19Th,1990 at 3.15 am, in the farwaniya hospital.Me my daddy's only girl.Having two brothers who were totally protective like the way brothers should be.Naturally , Mommy was always inclined towards the boys.That troubled me when i was small but now have understood the world and its ways.Daddy did nothing but thought about us and our future and our life and so on.He is my hero.They were supremely tolerant of my inordinate love for animals.Its in the family actually.

Went to an Indian school when i was 3.Like most of the kids,even i hated school then but fell in love with it when the time came to leave it forever(13 years makes a Big deal).Those 13 years introduced me to myself.At school, I met one important person who changed the shape of my life.I fell for the first lie he told me.At 12 i couldn't make out whats a lie so gradually fell for it.Boy .... i really loved him !!! Dreamt of him,Spoke about him,Fought for/with him ,Kissed him ,Cried for him ...after 6 years finally forgot him.It wasn't that easy..trust me !!! I had gained alot through him..a bad name (eg:bitch,slut,flirt) !!! All accepted...people don't lie..do they???Sometimes i wonder about all this..was i immatured or was i too matured ???well these questions are for me to answer to myself.In this duration i had made some good friends as well as some bad friends..both of which aren't in my life now..nor were they then..so i categorise them into bad friends.This wasn't the only experience I got from life..had many more but they were never important to me(yea, call me a flirt now).Most of the time life taught me in the hardest way possible but i wont totally agree to it.Its not been that bad as well.


In 11Th grade i was introduced to fun !!Parents were lenient as they understood that their pampered daughter is aware of her responsibilities and it was high time to let her loose.Made a couple of really good friends.Here in this context, i have to mention Faisal's name.He had been with me from the very beginning till the end.Most of the time people misunderstood our friendship but that dint make our relationship weak..because we believed in each other and not in what others blabbered.


On finishing high school, I was still obsessed with fun and love and friends.But all good things must come to an end.Forced into a college were i could never survive(REASON FOR COMPULSION-YOU ARE TOO SMALL TO TRAVEL SO BETTER JOIN A COLLEGE NEAR TO YOUR HOUSE).Yes,from here it all started.I have lost myself.The girl who wouldn't let anybody see her unless she was in her proper form is going to college with her hair done in the most ugly style,the girl who would never step out of her house without having the shine of gloss on her lips is walking on the road with chapped lips,lazy to wax,clothes which makes her look like 40 year old aunt(i wont agree to this completely thou)..this is the present me.It has almost been 10 months of this kind of life..in other words..10 months of this torture.


It would be inequitable of me to mention another twist in the tale which left me shattered(only for 2 days).Out of the 10 months mentioned above..9 months were lost in some one's fake love and care.I am too ashamed to mention the name as well..as he is int worth it.Wish i had realised this long back but happy that i dint...or else God knows how those 10 months would have passed.But it was a great time pass..thou i gave my heart,body,mind and soul in that relationship.Met him just once..i thought the basis of our relation was trust.Love is said to be blind..yea i was blinded.When i saw his face for the first time personally, someone donated me their eyes...i still remember that ugly face.But again...love is int all about the looks.This is what i told to myself and i still believe in the same.I don't change my opinions just for the sake of one guy.I'm like the preacher who practice what he preaches.Well the ending of this story was sudden..without any rational reason but happy that its over..or else fatema would have said ' i dint know ur choice was so ugly'!!!!But i know my friends...they accept any shit for me...but this time for a change the shit left me for my good !!!(lolz)


Now I'm alone..not that i don't have any friends or a boy friend...actually yes..i dont have any friends nor boy friends.I'm surviving and that's important.I believe in living for yourself..i know someday its all going to fall my way.NO HURRY DAN !!!Now lets turn back and see what have i learned.What???NAAAA...i never turn back.Its just one more month to go..and i will get my old Dan back..the bitcy one!!!I miss her.No one to guide me..no one to tell me what is to be done.Will miss my parents for sure but life doesn't stop there.I think i am falling into the web again..maybe not.Just because you were cheated in love once,twice,thrice ... doesn't mean u shouldn't love at all.I like someone,he said he liked me for long but now its unlike the interest he had in me when i was dating someone.Realities of life is really bitter.Someone said ,'Dan,you take your time..don't be dependant on any guy for u know what they do to you in the end'.Another girl said ,'just be yourself...don't let the boy games trouble you' while another said 'do what your heart says'.I am not dependant on anyone..i am my own self and i always do what my heart says.



This is not all about me..many more to come.This is what mostly everyone faces in their life..nothing new.Its just that when it happens ,you feel your the only one suffering and the main reason to that is you live only once !!!

DO RIGHT AND FEAR NO MAN !!!

Yea...now thats my motto.y do i have to fear if i havent done anything wrong????? I am scared of nuthing...thought i knew everything but atlast someone had to prove me wrong..and im happy that i was proved wrong or else would have rottened my life with a loser who meant no good to me.truly God loves me alot for showing me the right path before it was too late. when God closes one door he shows the way to many other doors.the silver lining of the cloud was nothing but an indication of the forth coming storm from which i am saved before it could be too late.days are just the same with just a pinch of difference.bored as hell,jobless as an ass,fooled in love but yet i havent accepted defeat.there is something waiting for me .i know its very close 2 me.let the time come..not gonna rush.patience is the key to success.always beleived in that..wish i had also followed it.anyways its never too late.no harm done ...actually nothing can harm me unless i let something to do so..my life is under my control and not dependant on anyone.

LAUGH SO HARD THAT EVEN SORROW SMILES AT YOU , LIVE LIFE SO WELL THAT EVEN DEATH LOVES TO SEE U LIVE , FIGHT SO HARD THAT EVEN FATE ACCEPTS IS DEFEAT!

LIFE MEANS " MISSING ONE AND FACING UNEXPECTED ONE"
WHEN YOU ARE NEAR NO ONE REMEMBERS YOU BUT WHEN YOU ARE FAR NO ONE FORGETS YOU- THATS LIFE !!!
THE PEOPLE WHO ARE LOVED DESERVE TO KNOW THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE THEM...SO DONT MISS A CHANCE TO EXPRESS YOUR LOVE ,BECAUSE HEARTS ARE BROKEN WITH THE WORDS UNSPOKEN (MY EXPERIENCE)
WHEN YOU SHARE THE GOODNESS IN YOUR HEART,U ALWAYS END UP WINNING HEARTS BECAUSE LIFE IS AN ECHO. IT GIVES BACK WHAT YOU AVE GIVEN TO OTHERS.
ALL MY LIFE I HAVE BELEIVED IN THIS - "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON" ..BUT THE HARDEST PART IS FINDING OUT THE REASON !!!
LIFE IS NOT WORTH LIVING UNTIL U FIND SOMEONE TO DIE FOR....AND LIFE IS NOT WORTH DYING UNTIL U FIND SOMEONE TO LIVE FOR..STRANGE...BUT TRUE !!!


THE INEVITABLE TRUTH OF LIFE-'EVERYONE IN YOUR LIFE IS GONNA HURT U SOONER OR LATER...'U JUST HAVE TO REALISE WHO IS WORTH? THE PAIN OR THE PERSON.

MEET ME !!!!!!!!!

1. I am DAN
2. I don't belive boys
3. I love walking in the rain
4. I love my friends
5. I am a Cancerian
6. I hate waking up early in the morning
7. I am single (not actually )
8. I love food
9. I love making friends
10. I love irritating people
11. I love talking and can be on the phone for hours
12. I like to be a politician
13. I love cold coffee
14. I love my mom, dad and brothers.
15. I love traveling
16. I dont follow rules
17. I am an extrovert.
18. I am a good girl
19. I am a bad girl
20. I am proud of being a christian
21. I love my cat
22. I love wine
23. I hate humidity
24. I love cold weather
25. I love music. All kinds. All languages.






26. I love style
27. I love pulling people’s legs
28. I love snow
29. I love making use of make-up
30. I love fergie
31. I hate repeating myself
32. I love hot showers
33. I love cuddling up
34. I am a cleanliness freak
35. I love taking the lead
36. I love living alone
37. I love adam sandler
38. I love animals
39. I love my boy freind
40. I am a practically romantic
41. I hate dishonesty
42. I love going for long drives with someone special. Especially in the rain.
43. I love eating out
44. I am a good cook. When I do cook
45. I love wearing Jeans
46. I love my work
48. I am abnormal
49. I am a free spirit
50. I love perfumed candles





51. I love wearing jackets and T-shirts
52. I hate people who do not listen to me
53. I am very impatient
54. I like my home
55. I am a quick decision maker...maybe
56. I do not regret anything I have done till now
57. I love lip gloss
58. I love fireplaces
59. I hate narrow minded people
60. I love gadgets
61. I hate being tied to one place
62. I believe that life is too short to hold grudges
63. I believe love can happen. Again. And Again. And Again.
64. I enjoy meeting new people
65. I judge people by their actions
66. I hate back-stabbers
67. I love my family
68. I love playing games
69. I have good/crazy/funny personality
70. I love taking photographs. Not being in them though.
71. I never take anything seriously
72. I love making jokes about myself
73. I love telling stories
74. I am self destructive
75. I hate wasting time







76. I believe in enjoying every minute of my life
77. I hate people watching me
78. I am an pessimist
79. I have great love and dedication towards God
80. I love to bunk my class
81. I love doing favors
82. I love watching movies
83. I love sea food
84. I love Faisal
85. I love showing off
86. I am proud to be an Indian
87. I love shopping
88. I am proud to be a girl
89. I believe in destiny
90. I love roller coasters
91. I love adventure sports
92. I love facebooking
93. I can never sit at one place for a long time
94. I love fire alarms
95. I hate anti nationalism
96. I love my eyes and lips
97. I love champagne
98. I love perfumes
99. I love to be loved
100. I am tired of typing this list

A NEW YEAR....A NEW BEGINNING !!

Here , at last found time 2 make a post, well this is my first one in this year so let me not make it the usual one...

well lots of changes in this new year and I'm quite happy with it..the time has come when all my gloomy days gonna turn into happy ones. first change is in my attitude . this change was all i needed in life...could not understand that !!!! My attitude towards life was the root cause for my depression... i realised i ain't different from others..I'm common !!! 'A LAYMAN' -That's what i am...i ain't the only person who got probs in life...there are more worse cases.well actually i had realised this long back and even mentioned this point in my earlier post but this year i decided to keep this point in my head every time i worry...its high time 2 talk/express less and act more . wish i had done this earlier !!!


A NEW YEAR...A NEW BEGINNING...this is what I'm looking forward to.tired of all that old boring complaining/negative attitude of mine....now i wanna think positive , then all things will fall my way (thanks to a very special person for developing this thought in me).

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION - NEVER TO MAKE A RESOLUTION !!!

TAKE LIFE AS IT COMES...

i have realised that i have gained a lot from life...the one thing in me which i am proud about is my EXPERIENCE in life..i have been thru good times and bad times , seen love and hate ,freedom and depression,and the list goes on...thou my age wont justify this statement but i know what i have learned over the past few years and i am proud that with this quality i would be able 2 tell my kids lots of bed time stories and put them to bed early !!!



just when God closes one door he shows the way 2 many more open doors..we just don't have the potential to see it , because we are so busy cursing and complaining about what we lost...("I" suits more than "WE" )

i believe it is necessary 2 have a distinction between God and humans and that distinction is based on our inevitable feature 2 sin...this is what makes us humans..i realised this fact long time back .that's how i ended up being too human!!!leaving aside the humanity part , i always knew that there was a way for me 2get back my happiness..things are still the same but yet i take it as how it comes..if something/someone is made for me then it will always be mine no matter what the circumstances.

TRULY....'GREAT IS GOD'S POWER AND GREATER IS HE HIMSELF' !!!