RISE AND SHINE ..............

Its time now...time to open my eyes and look for greater things... Hope is the power which keeps us living..the feeling which encourages us to work for a better tomorrow.There have been times when I lost it but then again life takes me back to where I started.I think I have mentioned this many times in my blog yet I would like to say it again "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON..AND THE REASON IS ALWAYS FOR YOUR GOOD" ..Everything that happened in my life so far was nothing but a route to a much better future or else I would have been stuck with people who do not deserve to be a part of my life.

Feeling great!?...lol after all its not the same now..I had taken the pain which beared me no fruits.. I used to think that I had been really unfortunate when it came to certain things but now that word doesn't exist in my dictionary.Am the most luckiest girl ever..also the happy one.

I was out of topics , that's why I dint come up with new posts lately..today am writing my instant thoughts..got just two more days in Kuwait..this was the best vacation ever..Wish I could stay longer but at the same time wanna go to India:)

I got to know people whom I never knew or was afraid to know..they turned out to be the best people I had ever known.I am going to miss everything once am in India...back to shallow world=MANGALORE !!Mangalore is fun...people suck.Some bunch of people call themselves classy but show nothing but their shallowness.I guess this time I am going back to India with tolerance,experience etc etc..I think the best way to stay away from such people is by staying aloof.Some people say "hey dude...am a frigging party animal and blah blah blah"..lol I wonder how they can even stand the mangalore gay parties unless if they themselves are...lol.Once someone sent me a message saying ' party @ blah blah blah...house, trance blah blah blah..BYOB.' ....BRING YOUR OWN BOOZE.huh?..you call this a party?Its like in school you get your own tiffin and sit and eat at the cornor and sometimes maybe share a little with your friends.Today am so proud to say that am not a mangalorean..I come from a shitty village called SHIRVA...which also sucks but is not as bitchy as the great MANGALORE !

Am drifting from the topic I had in mind..today I wanted to write about TINA TURNER..I was deeply moved by her life story but anyways go to wickipedia and read it yourself if your interested to know about her.Today am in the mood of bitching about mangalore.OK,the next thing I hate is their mentality..no no not the backward mentality(so obvious after all its mangalore..not London)..its the superior mentality that some people have.I know this one guy who is damn smart...I mean it when I say damn smart..there is nothing in this world that he can not speak about...but whats the use of such smartness when your character is so sad??This guy is so aware of his smartness ,which is not a bad thing but boy..please don't fly so high that your very existence on the earth becomes irritating for some people.

Bitching is something which is very normal and found everywhere.In my opinion bitching is completely normal..in fact I wouldn't hate the person who would bitch about me but I would hate it if that person would pretend .Pretending is the real bitching...!!!

LOVE..............(TO EVERYONE) !!!

LOVE is something which I don't understand..it is so different !!! Love hurts the most..and is also the best pain killer. Why do some people call it a game?Is it always necessary that one should win or lose in love?I personally feel that love is stupid..it isint about the words we say,the actions we take,the things we do,the hearts we break..its about people who can look at each other and just know !!!(My fav quote on love-Love is giving someone the chance to destroy you and trusting them not to)Sometimes the hardest thing to do are the things that really matter.I have grown to understand what love is yet always fail in it !!Love was all about looks for me..but I grew to understand that love is something beyond that...heart,soul!!!The astonishing fact is that people change..fuck the looks..but by their heart,their character,their behaviour .... this amazes me.Change is inevitable ...if this is so then how will love survive?What if someday a person wakes up and feels no longer love for you?Well this can happen..but this is certainly not love.


Actually what inspired me to write on love is that I started believing in love..I feel it truly exists.Sometimes its not meant to work..but not all the time.Being lonely is the worst feeling in life.I suddenly started feeling a weird thing in me..all my life I hated kids,complained about marriage,feared being old and scared of death.Maybe now I see life from a different perspective..its not the same now.Its a fresh new beginning where there is no vengeance.At some point or the other,everyone gets back the way they deserve,I believe in this,so why waste time on hatred?There is someone who knows what you are going through ,the way you have been cheated or treated ..there is someone who is gonna act on behalf of us.Sometimes we cant judge whats right and wrong..many a times we feel we are right..but we are not ..we are mostly blind to our faults.I think this is where love comes into the picture..your loved one's correct you,guide you,accept you despite your faults.Love is not only having fun..its also sharing sorrows..being there for one another.My mom once told me that if you have been stepped on,that doesn't mean that the person went ahead of you,someday somewhere sometime that person is going to face the same but even more harder !!I had some hatred in me..but now I think its a waste of time..some people don't deserve to run in my head.


Don't settle for the one you can live with..wait for the one you can't live without.So the happy part is that i am still living...guess I dint find anyone worth dying for.I can't live with people who say things and never mean it or those words which once said makes no sense to them or those who feel good about the fact that they get out of a relationship smoothly or say the chicken hearted ones (lol).Learn to face the shit you created !!

LIFE IS TOO SHORT..JUST LOVE AND FORGIVE !!!

"Happiness is enhanced by others, but does not depend upon others. "

True..so true !! Somebody once told me "you don't have to bear people you don't like"..seriously why pretend??? I have done that so many times..I wont completely agree to the pretending part but I have tolerated a few people who dint deserve the pain I took to bear them.Some people are like pain in the ass.Sometimes I think of making a list and putting it up on facebook..but NO that's rude ! You know what I love the most in me..everyone i dislike knows that I dislike them..its easy to point it out in my case.The symptoms are :

1.I don't talk much
2.I don't eat or drink anything that is offered to me
3.I sit and think about when I get to leave that place
4.I put on a very fake smile

Anyways,today I want to talk about happiness and love.I thought a lot about it last night and came to the conclusion that only love can get you happiness and only being happy and spreading happiness everywhere can get you love and acceptance from others.If someone leaves you,it doesn't mean that its the end of your life.There is a purpose for everything that happens in our lifes.Today from the place where I stand , I feel what ever I have accomplished is due to the failure I had faced in my life.

I had the worst day yesterday.All my life i had heard of people making fun of my school(UNITED INDIAN SCHOOL/ U.I.S) but yesterday I got to know why we were made fun off.Our school consists of only malayalis(and this is certainly not something to be made fun of)..I love mallus..I had always been with them.But yesterday's mallu gang was the heights . Personally no issues with any one of them..we were minding our own business..but there was this one cheap ass , wannabe mallu who irritated me.You know what I hate the most in him? Its that you just add the letter "E" to my name and that becomes his name..wow..was his dad thinking about me when he was naming his son???For a moment I wished to be a mallu and then the next moment I realised that it would only embarrass me and nothing else.

Happy??yea..why not???So many reasons for it..for example:am being so much encouraged to continue writing my blog and also being appreciated(by my friends lol),am getting the cell phone of my dreams,am gonna get graduated soon,now a days 'I ask and I receive'(thank you DAD),I feel I no longer miss anyone,am going to shop on next Thursday,I found the exact lipstick I was looking for,I get my size of jeans everywhere,suddenly ITS BEEN RAINING MEN ! , I might go to Bangalore in June (and also get a tattoo and belly piercing) etc etc...lol

MEN WHO TURN YOU OFF !!!

1.Men who watch MTV ROADIES
2.Men who like flowers
3.Men who can fight but doesn't
4.Men who can't keep their word
5.Men who flirt all the time...sometimes is fine !!
6.Men who got a bad taste in dressing
7.Men who accept their defeat even before they are defeated
8.Men who act like Mr.Bean
9.Men who tell a filmy dialogue when in a serious situation
10.The guy who sent me this message on facebook -
"Hmm Ma name is ****** U can Call me ****..!! m styng in manipal..!! actly frm singapore India is ma mother land nd singapore is ma 2nd homw town..!! M styng in manipal with ma auntys house..!! Ma parents r in singapore..!! ma dad hav own ship yaards n ships in singapore..!! n Ma mom is DR. in singapore.!! N i've intrst in tattooing m gng 2 stdy prfsnl course tattooing in thialnd n DJ course 2..!! N i love hang out frnds n i Love clubbing 2 d core...!! Cn v b frndz dea :) "

AHHMEN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

MATERIAL GIRL !!!!

Some boys kiss me, some boys hug me
I think they're O.K.
If they don't give me proper credit
I just walk away

They can beg and they can plead
But they can't see the light, that's right
'Cause the boy with the cold hard cash
Is always Mister Right, 'cause we are


Living in a material world
And I am a material girl
You know that we are living in a material world
And I am a material girl

Some boys romance, some boys slow dance
That's all right with me
If they can't raise my interest then I
Have to let them be

Some boys try and some boys lie but
I don't let them play
Only boys who save their pennies
Make my rainy day, 'cause they are

Living in a material world
And I am a material girl
You know that we are living in a material world
And I am a material girl


Boys may come and boys may go
And that's all right you see
Experience has made me rich
And now they're after me, 'cause everybody's

Living in a material world
And I am a material girl
You know that we are living in a material world
And I am a material girl

A material, a material, a material, a material world

Living in a material world
Living in a material world !!!!

SHOPPING !!!

shopping is an art..only practice makes you better!!over the years i have mastered this art..and am so proud of it !!!!!!

yesterday was "only shopping " day for me...all i did was shop.thanks to my aunt who equally enjoys shopping like I do.I got a suitcase full of clothes ..i don't even have enough place to store them!who cares...i can buy a new closet !!!

shopping makes me forget all my troubles..i always do it when am stressed..its more better than yoga . trust me on that...i remember the day before my exams..i was so tensed..so u know what i did to get over my tension.what i hate doing the most is shopping for others..everything i buy for others i feel will look good on me.. i know am being greedy and selfish..what can i do???its clothes after all...and one more thing i hate doing is going shopping with friends..i prefer to be alone when i choose my clothes..people confuse me..i know what looks best on me and when i don't, i know on whom it will look the best..so i gift it to them(lol)......


see am not a bad girl when it comes to shopping..its my second love.(first love is self love isint it?)what can i do if i love myself so much..???why shouldn't i??i fall in love fast but get out of it even more faster..this is so true..even my Chinese horoscope says so about me.but am so deeply committed to myself and shopping..maybe i never found anyone or anything better than my first two love..long time back i thought i did..but NO WAYS !!shopping is way better...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ability is what you're capable of doing. Motivation determines what you do. Attitude determines how well you do it.

A man dies daily, only to be reborn in the morning, bigger, better and wiser.So true..today am bigger,better and wiser(lol may be). .

Today was a great day..felt so good.I realized that anyone can do anything in their life if they want to.People try to put u down..those are not your enemies..they only help you to grow stronger and better.There are also people who support you..we call them friends.I had a proper mixture of both..lol i dont know what bullshit am writing ..ha ha ha...i just thought i would make my blog inspirational today ..that's why i googled for an appropriate caption.Anyways let me be original now..so yea today ...today was a good day..loved it..!!! So excited about going shopping tomorrow..shopping is one thing that makes me so happy and forget all my worries..even buyin a pair of socks makes me happy.

Am so blank today..maybe I will come up with something better tomorrow..Good night!!