Ability is what you're capable of doing. Motivation determines what you do. Attitude determines how well you do it.

A man dies daily, only to be reborn in the morning, bigger, better and wiser.So true..today am bigger,better and wiser(lol may be). .

Today was a great day..felt so good.I realized that anyone can do anything in their life if they want to.People try to put u down..those are not your enemies..they only help you to grow stronger and better.There are also people who support you..we call them friends.I had a proper mixture of both..lol i dont know what bullshit am writing ..ha ha ha...i just thought i would make my blog inspirational today ..that's why i googled for an appropriate caption.Anyways let me be original now..so yea today ...today was a good day..loved it..!!! So excited about going shopping tomorrow..shopping is one thing that makes me so happy and forget all my worries..even buyin a pair of socks makes me happy.

Am so blank today..maybe I will come up with something better tomorrow..Good night!!

CANCER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Frankly...i don't know how it happens but all i know is that when it happens , a person is gone (if not known at an early stage).i know i am writing after a very long time and that too i chose to write about cancer..weird ! actually the very thought of how dangerous cancer proves to be has deeply moved me..in fact it was an all CANCER DAY for me yesterday. all i heard about was cancer,all i spoke about was cancer,all i read about was cancer,all i thought about was cancer,all i dreamt about was cancer and bla bla bla...


Let me elaborate myself here..


1.first thing my mom told me in the morning was "come soon from MC.Donald's cause Bosco uncle's wife's requiem mass is in salmiya and we have to go for it" and guess what? yea she died due to cancer (may her soul R.I.P)






2.we were at Apurva's house.Kiwi says "i gotta leave by 4.30 cause my aunt who once had cancer is coming to visit me "





3.then we go to our 12Th grade teacher's house.she told me something which completely broke me down.A girl in my school who left a long time back to London was dead due to cancer..i never knew her personally but that moment i felt that she was my best friend..i could see her picture in front of my eyes...the dead old memories were so fresh and alive.i couldn't express this to anyone because i wasn't sure of what i was feeling.that moment was indescribable and one of those rare moments in my life.

hope that she is having a good time up there .. may her soul rest in peace !!!
MISS YOU SHAHNAZ!








4.And then lastly..as usual i was watching a movie before i sleep and guess which one it had to be ..."A WALK TO REMEMBER".Gosh why did Mandy Moore have to die because of cancer???why not aids?or a kidney failure?i fell in love with Shane west..actually i fell in love with the love that Mandy Moore and Shane west portrayed in that movie.

this was all about my CANCER DAY celebrated on 3.05.2010! i think i will always remember this day..i don't think anyone reads my blog but if someone ever comes across this one , all am gonna say is that go for a routine check up.u lose nothing..maybe a few drops of blood but those few drops may save your life!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAISAL !!!

Faisal(march 9Th,1990).. his very existence made my life so beautiful.Met him 6 years back..right now he is 7 seas away from me but the memories we shared are still fresh and alive in my heart.

Here is something i want to share with you..The first time we met you touched my cheek..that gave me a very bad impression of you ..little did i know that touch was not on my cheek but on my heart.I remember every single moment i spent with you..those moments were so special..never did they come in my life again.I still remember how we used to get beaten up in the tuition,how we used to fool our parents and talk for hours on the phone,how we used to fight for silly things,how i used to irritate you with my 6page long Hindi letter and how you used to struggle to read them,how you used to wait for me after school.I always wonder how you used to ever bear me?i still remember this incident which increased my respect for you..remember when i told you that you were like my brother and you said 'NO WAYS...YOU ARE JUST MY FRIEND..MY BEST FRIEND' and then i asked you if we could become more than a friend and you said ' WE ARE...BUT A LITTLE LESS THAN LOVERS' ! That was the heights...you are perfect..not a spot.You were there for me when i was emotionally weak..i could always count on you..i remember how u always supported me..how u always encouraged me.This is something i always wanted to learn from you.My eyes are waiting to see you...God knows when am i ever going to see you...you went so far from me..U.K..MANCHESTER..Hope you are having the time of your life.I am so happy for you..you already made it to the top and i hope u never see back.I dedicate this blog to you...i don't care what the world has to say about you...you are always special for me..and you always will be.When the whole world got our friendship wrong,it was only our true friendship which proved others wrong.I am proud of our relation.I never want to lose you..that would be the worst day of my life.All i want to say is that i really love you no matter where you are..i will always keep you in my prayers..i hope the best thing in life comes your way..Make your parents proud!


I can write a book on our friendship..or say i can make this entire blog about us..but some things are better unsaid..we know what we share and that is what is most important.I couldn't think of giving you anything on your birthday..so i thought i would let you know where you stand in my life !

WISH YOU A VERY VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY..YOU ARE OLDER THAN YESTERDAY BUT YOUNGER THAN TOMORROW..YOU ARE NOT GETTING OLDER,JUST MORE DISTINGUISHED........HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SOMEONE WHO IS FOREVER YOUNG !

WHAT A FEELING ?!!

First when there's nothing
but a slow glowing dream
that your fear seems to hide
deep inside your mind.
All alone I have cried
silent tears full of pride
in a world made of steel,
made of stone.
Well, I hear the music,
close my eyes,
feel the rhythm,
wrap around,
take a hold of my heart.
What a feeling.
Bein's believin'.
I can have it all,
now I'm dancing for my life.
Take your passion
and make it happen.
Pictures come alive,
you can dance right through your life.
Now I hear the music,
close my eyes,
I am rhythm.
In a flash it takes hold of my heart.
What a feeling.
Bein's believin'.
I can have it all,
now I'm dancing for my life.
Take your passion
and make it happen.
Pictures come alive,
now I'm dancing through my life.
What a feeling.
What a feeling
I AM MUSIC NOW
Bein's believin'.
I AM RHYTHM NOW
Pictures come alive,
you can dance right through your life.
What a feeling.
YOU CAN REALLY HAVE IT ALL
What a feeling.
PICTURES COME ALIVE WHEN I CALL
I can have it all
I CAN REALLY HAVE IT ALL
Have it all
PICTURES COME ALIVE WHEN I CALL
CALL CALL CALL CALL
WHAT A FEELINGI
can have it all
BEIN'S BELIEVIN
Bein's believin'
TAKE YOUR PASSION
MAKE IT HAPPEN
make it happen
WHAT A FEELING
what a feeling
BEIN'S BELIEVIN'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WORDS OF WISDOM !!!

If you want to study yourself -- look into the hearts of other people. If you want to study other people -- look into your own heart.
-Friedrich von Schiller

People who fight fire with fire usually end up with ashes
-Abigail Van Buren

Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer but wish we didn't.
-Erica Jong

He that gives good advice, builds with one hand; he that gives good counsel and example, builds with both; but he that gives good admonition and bad example, builds with one hand and pulls down with the other.
-Francis Bacon

He only profits from praise who values criticism.
-Heinrich Heine

Take it easy -- but take it.
-Woody Guthrie

MORNING COMES (as mornings always do)

Under a lovers' sky
Gonna be with you
And noone's gonna be around
If you think that you won't fall
Well just wait until
Til the sun goes down

Underneath the starlight - starlight
There's a magical feeling - so right
It'll steal your heart tonight

You can try to resist
Try to hide from my kiss
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark
You'll surrender your heart
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight
No, you can't fight it
It's gonna get to your heart

There's no escape from love
Once a gentle breeze
Weaves it's spell upon your heart
No matter what you think
It won't be too long
Til your in my arms
Underneath the starlight - starlight
We'll be lost in the rhythm - so right
Feel it steal your heart tonight

You can try to resist
Try to hide from my kiss
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark
You'll surrender your heart
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight
No you can't fight it
No matter what you do
The night is gonna get to you

Don't try then
You're never gonna win

Underneath the starlight - starlight
There's a magical feeling - so right
It will steal your heart tonight

You can try to resist
Try to hide from my kiss
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark
You'll surrender your heart
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight
No, you can't fight it

You can try to resist
Try to hide from my kiss
But you know
Don't you know that you can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark
You'll surrender your heart
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight
No, you can't fight it
It's gonna get to your heart

Prejudice is opinion without judgement !!!!!

SEEING IS BELIEVING...forget what u heard...experience life your way...you learn from mistakes..that doesn't mean u keep on making mistakes in order to learn...this phrase is so easy to say and even more easy to type..lol..i always make a mistake..then one more mistake and then one more and then one more and then one more and then one more........................GOSH am i ever gonna learn !!!!


they say you meet the right people after meeting the wrong ones ...but i keep meeting the wrong ones and then the wrong ones and then again the wrong ones and then again the wrong ones.........GOSH am i that naive ???? in this very same context my uncle cum best friend said that 'YOUR LIKE A BUTTERFLY...OVER THE YEARS YOU WILL BE A MOTH' !!! but i don't wanna look ugly...


my best friend told me that i am not matured...why did he say that?is it because i make the wrong decisions or because i act like a kid sometimes...could be both !!!anyways when friends say such things i gotta take it...no matter how hard it is to digest.