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Everything and anything is possible if you got the passion for it :)

Frustration !!!

Freedom is something I seek eternally. I know some things do not come easy to us, we either got to snatch it or make it happen through constant struggle. Struggle is a bitter word but also a common one in the corporate world. As that is exactly what am doing for a career, for a career that I got no clue about. May be that is why I am under such pressure now. I took some time to figure it out and after constant brainstorming with myself , I realized that I want to be a part of something that relates to me.

After heavy sleep deprivation, loss in appetite, nervous breakdown and certain other ailments , I had to soothe to myself. What hurts the most is that in life we always choose this one person who we can relate to and make that person as our favorite. But when that favorite person of ours doesn't have anything much to offer rather than their own sad stories , you kind of lack a shoulder to lean on. This is very disappointing. Extremely disappointing. I am not an expert in lending my shoulders to others but at least I understand when a person needs me though I may turn out to be a bad listener.

Anyways the reason for writing after such a long time could be frustration and the need to express it. This is when I turn to my blog and burst out my entire thoughts, cause I know that at this place am safe with no one prying on what I got to say.

There are certain things I tell myself , like ; time heals everything; God has a plan for everyone; live in the moment; everything happens for a reason and the reason is always for your good and blah blah. These sayings are true but very crappy cause waiting for something you really desire is a pain. Wish patience was an easy word !!!

Dreams ................

My dreams are too unrealistic but never discouraged me from dreaming. Day dreaming is one of my favorite hobby. It is one of the few things in my life over which I got complete control, maybe thats why I enjoy doing it. Few years from now, I see myself doing all those things for which I required permission or was forbidden from doing it. This was my problem ever since I grew up. I don't like to be challenged(who does?). I always believed in one thing or rather you can say my motto is " I know it better than you do " or " I am always right". Though it might not be a wise saying but it sure makes you confident and a little bit arrogant. In my defense, I would say people are different and so is their attitude.

Here I am today in the place where I was born and brought up but yet hate to spend one more moment here. Over the years I came to realize that this place brought the chicken and pig out of me. But gone are the days where I was weak and scared. Now I like to raise my leg and kick people's ass. People should get what they deserve and if you don't give it to them , they might get it the harder way. This is my little way of showing that I care.

I don't know why I chose to write on this topic today. Actually I decided on writing every single day as I was here ( kuwait) for my short vacation(which doesn't seem so short anymore) but have come to realize that I cant write anymore or rather one can say that I don't have any inspiration to write. I always make a mental note of things which are worth mentioning in my blog but when I actually sit down to write, I go completely blank ! I guess the reason behind this is that I am no more ANTAGONISTIC ...I have gone past that stage but it makes my blog look a lil different (I guess) so I dont wanna change it. I was thinking of creating another blog and writing more on general things as nothing great is happening in my life currently. However I will try my best to be more active in my blog.

Be kinder than necessary, because everyone you meet is fighting some sort of battle.

NO ONE CAN HELP YOU UNLESS YOU HELP YOURSELF FIRST ...

I understood this fact when I faced the reality of my life...my close friends helped me realize this..they came up with solutions like "tie a thread on your pinky so that you would be reminded when to bite your tongue".Just when I was working on it , the big thunder cracked above my head.But I wasn't shattered because I knew no one could help me unless I helped myself.My best friend said I couldn't keep anything to myself..well I did .Anyways , before revealing the changes it brought into my life I would like to mention how happy I am.I got a phone call from a person who supposedly was to be my friend for 6 years saying " you got no friends Dan,just look around you..you are so cheap". Well now my reply to that someone would be "why don't you look around yourself ...you got friends who never liked you in fact bitched about you..at least I never had friends like that and please reimburse the complete Bangalore trip which was on me :) ".I thought I would be lonely in Mangalore but no..God helped me a lot through the struggle ..though my first 2 years weren't very memorable and cheerful but I have managed to make my final year and also my life very colorful with many new friends..obviously this doesn't mean I would forget my old friends , I would never do that. speaking about my life now..I think its great !Now who ever thought that I was lonely..I think its high time you spoke for yourself !And yea one more thing to mention or point out to the person who said " look what your doing Dan..you are bitching about everyone" , well hope that someone realizes that I had bitched along with her..I guess when the time comes everyone wants their hands clean.Anyways I think am just over it..I got a big mouth and I like to talk..thats something I would never wanna control.YOU BE CAREFUL WITH WHAT YOU WANNA SAY TO ME ...

It would be every selfish of me if I dint mention about a special someone ...he has been with me whenever I wanted him.I would rather not say anything more cause I guess there has already been quite a lot of love stories in my earlier blog..but this one's special and I want to keep this one to myself...he is just too precious to be talked about.Hope this one works.....

IT MUST HAVE BEEN.............

Lay a whisper on my pillow

Leave the winter on the ground

I wake up lonely, is there a silence

In the bedroom and all around

Touch me now, I close my eyes

And dream away...

It must have been love, but it's over now

It must have been good, but I lost it somehow

It must have been love, but it's over now

From the moment we touched till the time had run out

Make believing we're together

That I'm sheltered by your heart

But in and outside I turn to water

Like a teardrop in your palm

And it's a hard winter's day

I dream away...

It must have been love, but it's over now

It was all that I wanted, now I'm living without

It must have been love, but it's over now

It's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows

It must have been love, but it's over now

It must have been good, but I lost it somehow

It must have been love, but it's over now

From the moment we touched till the time had run out

P.S ..this song has no resemblance to my life or to any person living or dead !!

THERE WAS ONLY ONE THING MISSING IN MY LIFE....!!!

There was a time once when I was alone..but not anymore.I found my only friend and after that I was never alone.Those who know me would not believe this change in me but for all I know is that I am happy.All I needed was a little guidance...I never saw this change coming in me.I guess it was high time for me to realise that life had much more than sorrow and worry.I have forgotten my past as it means nothing to me now..all that matters is the present which I am working on to make my future beautiful.

Now when I look ahead ..I feel so positive.I know I have the capability to make things better ..suddenly I have the faith in me that I can make things work( if I want to).I am so powerful because I have learnt to control my life in my very own style..like they say be 'the ruler of your life..don't let anyone else rule it for you'.

From my previous posts anyone can make out that most of the pain was caused by someone or the other.But not anymore cause I have decided not to give anyone the right to hurt me.For this to happen I need to be more careful with what I say and do.My mouth has been the main reason for putting me into trouble but am working on it now.So far the results are good:)

My plan for life-to be happy.Its time to wait for the right one.Don't wanna screw up anything anymore..time will get me closer to the best things in life...just like how time heals every wound in the same way time will bring the solution to my problems.Till then I am going to wait........

AWESOME GOD !!!

When He rolls up His sleeves He ain't just puttin' on the ritz (our God is an awesome God) There is thunder in His footsteps And lightning in His fist (our God is an awesome God) Well, the Lord wasn't joking When He kicked 'em out of Eden It wasn't for no reason that He shed his blood His return is very close and so you better be believing that our God is an awesome God Our God(our God) is an awesome God He reigns(He reigns) from heaven above With wisdom(with wisdom) pow'r and love our God is an awesome God And when the sky was starless in the void of the night (our God is an awesome God) He spoke into the darkness and created the light (our God is an awesome God) Judgment and wrath he poured out on Sodom Mercy and grace He gave us at the cross I hope that we have not too quickly forgotten that our God is an awesome God Our God(our God) is an awesome God He reigns(He reigns) from heaven above With wisdom(with wisdom) pow'r and love our God is an awesome God Our God is an awesome God Our God is an awesome God (Our God is an awesome God) (Our God is an awesome God)